Beyond the Rainbow

“I think, therefore I am.” 

While thoughts seem to prove our existence and define our personality, it’s at times like this when I find the ability to think and care to be one of the worst curses of being human. Nothing could be more tiring than reflecting on a past conversation or encounter that seemed perfectly normal while it was happening, only to recollect certain moments of it, that were swept over and forgotten by a volley of changing emotions at the time, and realising that those few insignificant seconds completely overturn and throw into disarray a month’s or even a year’s worth of thoughts and feelings you had cherished about someone. 

Perhaps it’s because one tends to think too much about about things they care about, in which case ‘the key to success is finding the right balance between caring and not caring,’ as a wise Tumblr post once said, but then, surely you start to care about something because its been ruling your thoughts for quite some time before?

J.K. Rowling was probably right when she said ‘thoughts could leave deeper scarring than almost anything else,’ but as the luxury of Dumbledore’s pensieve is missing from my world at the moment, the next best solution I can find to get away from thoughts seems to be getting away from people. Unfortunately, that’s much more easily said than done.